I might have a lot of things to say but I’m either really lazy or really hyper so let’s see. It’s the start of my 12-workday leave (due to holiday extensions and bank policies) and I DO have some time to spare. Last post was more than a month ago so hello.
Again, this blog was selfishly made for my own egocentric satisfaction. It’s like talking to myself and also having the opportunity for others to delve into my thoughts, even if they really don’t want to…
Well, it had been an awesome year for me so far. So many changes.
I seem to have forgotten how to wear pants as skirts are a thing in the office and I have really bad tastes so it’s safer for me that way. Most of the clothes I’m wearing are either from my sister or given to me by friends as I suppose they pity me for looking a bit trashy beside my new team mates. I mean, if it’s possible to wear silk pajamas to work I will but again, I have to act like a manager now. The clothes I actually bought for myself have prints that don’t fit me (as per those teammates). Where can that be learned please.
Pretty comfortable wearing heels now even if I’m already towering above most as it is. I feel my bruised feet at the end of the day though and I miss wearing my Chucks. Wearing heels really change how you feel at work though so I might need some more for next year :)
I think I’ve tried a lot of things I was scared of and things I abhor to a certain degree. I am also trying out new, random stuff to occupy my time at home but my bed is too seductive so I never get anything done.
I tried cooking stuff but then I get discouraged easily when it doesn’t come out how it’s supposed to and also looking at the receipts from the deli, I can only curse out and promise never to do it again. So usually, I go without dinner and I have also rediscovered my college sickness of eating just one meal a day. Hence some unhealthy yet very-welcome weight loss.
Anyway, the photo above is a YouTube screencap of my chosen drum lesson instructor. Haven’t even gone past the drum fills as I’ve left my sticks at le QC house and I don’t want to buy another one. It’s fun but again LAZY CAT.
I was also able to finally grow my nails and paint them myself so my manly hands have improved! I don’t bite on them anymore. Or maybe not a lot.
I was also able to cut down on my smoking as I don’t like how people smell after smoking which was so evident when you join them in the elevator so I only smoke in the morning before taking a bath and maybe when I get home or maybe not at all because…LAZY.
Hello irrelevant photo. It’s a goldfish! Get it?
Anyway, I had my first job fair and the continuation of my enjoyment with my new line of work is magnified. There are a lot of work opportunities and I cannot understand why someone can just lull around at home and blame the government for not providing it.
Well, I love hearing about people’s lives. Here I get the privilege to have a peek into a person’s struggles and dreams. What motivates them. How they view the world and how they deal with changes. I get nervous sometimes because some of them can look into your eyes and bare their souls and I feel that I am undeserving of knowing about that part of their lives. It does give me an understanding though of what they really want to achieve.
As I seem to be enjoying the role TOO MUCH, I’ve been staying at the office for longer hours and it doesn’t bother me. I don’t go out a lot anymore though as I just want to sleep immediately afterwards.
NOW THIS was pointed out by a stranger as apparently I wasn’t conscious of it. Which brings me to one of my greatest fears of all time: DATING.
(BUT this is only second to my fear of the waters :D)
I went on one (finally) and it was a pleasant experience I suppose. He was a pretty decent guy and very upfront on expectations and all that. I was pretty lucky I suppose that he didn’t turn out to be a psycho or a kidnapper or else I’d be dead by now or I wont go on a date EVER AGAIN.
Of course there was this attraction and we even met twice although I’m quite sure I wasn’t a very good date as I couldn’t say a lot of things and I’ve done nothing but work-related shiz for the past few months so… There was NOTHING interesting about myself now. I can only blab about things from before and about work so…BORING.
Unbeknownst to the guy I have already done some research about him and he has pretty good credentials (what was funny was that he’s from the same school and is in the same line of business as… never mind). Which doesn’t really matter. I just wanted to make sure he’s not a serial killer. Or a networking agent.
I actually thought of red flags which we use at work and I even literally used some interview questions and phrases. What a bore I am. He was trying hard at least to set my mind at ease.
Anyway, due to a certain situation, I recommended we become friends before anything else. Most probably might not hear from him again but it was a good experience. And yeah he kept on reminding me to turn off my work-muddled brain.
(I almost ate my words last night though but it was a good thing nothing ensued)
I don’t think I’ll be doing that again anytime soon though (dating I mean).
I need to improve my social skills a little bit further.
Well, what else have I done?
I celebrated my birthday alone in the darkness of my room (as I was feeling anti-social that weekend).
I haven’t exercised AT ALL for two months now.
There are still manyaks everywhere especially during commute. Even lolos for God’s sake. I almost pushed one off the bus seat as he was doing that crossed-arms shit.Then there was this guy standing on the bus aisle and he was trying to feel women’s butts when they passed by him. WHAT ASSHOLES.
When I got home I was so mad I just curse-tweeted and ate chocolate cake. That was also around the same time when that tanim-bala modus broke the internet. HAY.
And jokes have been running the government and will be STILL running for office next year.
Ewan ko na.
Will just bullet-proof (HAHA) my bag for my trip to El Nido Friday this coming week. Wait, I don’t look like I have money to pay them anyway so maybe I’m safe.
FUCK YOU GUYS that is all I want to say to that syndicate.
On a lighter note:
Also had a very-delayed videoke date with Erma.
And a high-maintenance one with Nana (one of my team mates) to try out that gel nail thingy.
Life is good.
Latest artist discovery. Goes by SNNN and does amazing Japanese ilustrations. The colors are awesome <3