Sometimes you really just wanna get that out.

Half and Half

Hiyep.

Same record for today. It should actually be half the time it takes me to do that 4.8k but I’m already half dead by the end of it as well so…

No snails and sweet-smelling flowers today though :(

***

I hate vegetables.

So I shook off the cabbage inside the falafel (a sacrilege I know).

It tastes better with cheese ♥

And it tasted better than I expected (for a vegetarian meal)

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(Beni’s Falafel along Valdez st cor Makati Ave)

***

 I look like a sunburnt demon at the end of every jog.

Why can’t it be like those commercials?

:D

***

I don’t know how to feel about all of this yet.

I am happy as I got it.

I am apprehensive for the change.

I am a bit sad as I feel like I’m leaving the people I’ve been with for four years.

Pero hello ibang floor lang yun.

For now.

***

It also brings me closer to my office crush.

*teehee*

But again, he’s taken @_@

***
Relentless.

***

Sadly, I am done with my driving lessons.

The whole 11 hours of it.

BAKIT NAMAMATAYAN PA DIN AKO NG MAKINA DAMNETS.

Anyway, MIGHT show my skills to my dad this weekend.

I’m gonna make sure I have a sign posted on the card first: Student Driver.

Or maybe I should just have the car painted with the Universal Driving School signage.

People would be more forgiving that way :D

***

I resolve to not actively look for that thing anymore as in most cases, they hide themselves when you do.

I shall devote myself to my family, career and hobbies.

Nuks.

Mondayne

Hello.

I’ve done 4.8k in 35 minutes today!

But then I smoke in the morning (sometimes) which nullifies my existence in this world

:D

I have semi-new scenery this time running around (?) the Ayala Triangle as a sampaguita (Jasminum sambac) bush is in full bloom (and smells really nice!) plus those damn snails keep me busy as they keep crossing the walkway. I’ve thrown three into the bushes not because I am a compassionate person but because I feel sick whenever I hear (and feel) that crunch @_@

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***

Aha! I think I know now why I was able to run that long today! I ate a whole pack of Mik Mik and Haw Haw! So much sugar and energy! But I still want cake!

***

I am a bit more confident in my driving skills. But I keep on swerving whenever I change gears as I lack focus.

It doesn’t help that one of the instructors keep hitting on me and the other old guy is a hothead.

*le sigh*

***

Done with my plumbing issues for the weekend!

Now I just want to replace the shower head and I don’t have the proper tools. I’ll borrow from the office guys na lang.

***

There’s this current issue on the INC blocking EDSA right now.

I only have questions:

Do you have a permit for the length of the period you have been staying there?

Why EDSA?

What has de Lima done wrong?

Why is no one stopping the mayhem?

Has anyone tried putting BLOC VOTING and SEPARATION OF CHURCH AND STATE together in a sentence?

I do have friends from INC and I know they are kind and that they won’t inconvenience anyone unreasonably. Please do not put my friends names to shame.

Hackneyed

I feel like I’m in some sort of battle with myself.

It’s more tiring than it sounds.

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 I like oranges :3

***

A bit excited in spending the weekend with MYSELF.

I want to eat, sleep, sing, read, watch the White Collar series and that second Hobbit movie AGAIN (because Thranduil ♥), maybe play the guitar or start watching those drum lessons with the traditional grip, and maybe have a toast to my (not-so) resilient self.

This all shall be done in the darkness of my abode.

Hopefully, it’s also raining then :)

***

Day6 of my tragic driving lessons has passed and my engine still dies. I think I understand the gear thing now but I can’t seem to multitask and look at the mirrors and the people/objects in front of me as well. I keep on forgetting the signals and what more if I need to open the headlights or the wipers in front?

I am already a very frazzled black cat.

Again I need to relax and refresh my system.

Pander

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Hi.

Why are you reading my shi*?

Obviously, they’re nothing but random musings.

This site won’t help you in any way.

****

I feel down.

Not the depresssed sort of down. Just… down.

I’m not sure if I can wait for two months more before my vacation.

We’ll see.

***

Dating sites have become boring.

Or app for that matter.

I don’t like replying to messages these days.

*snob alert*

***

We’ve just met a Canadian kid and following the stereotype, he IS nice and he likes hockey. And he says “oot”. And “aboot”

:)

***

Rampant sore eyes condition in the office this week.

Hopefully I am immune.

***

I feel old.

I no longer have the patience for certain situations.

I feel tired.

I want to lounge around and walk around and not think about anything at all.

***

I should stop being too wary of strangers.

Anyway, my friends are helping me out on that part ♥

***

It’s Day5 for my driving lessons yesterday and it hasn’t gotten me anywhere.

(Suckey lady driver in the making!)

***

Planning to be the little old lady I am this Friday night and cook and drink by myself.

Buffalo wings or Samgyupsal?

And brandy!

***

I actually got memory lapses that time and I made a mess of myself (broken glass, food on the floor and a really painful cut on my hand). I hope I didn’t hassle anyone though.

***

I need to get my shi* together.

Rakenroltotheworld

peta

(Photos are from PETA’s website)

IT WAS AWESOME.

You need to watch it because words cannot do justice.

Also, NEW CRUSH ♥

benj

Brake

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I like walking along the shores and squishing sand and water between my toes.

I don’t have any concrete plans yet for my ten-day vacation this October.

I want sun and sand.

Or maybe mountains!

Or maybe that new tattoo!

Whatever.

(This photo was from two years ago sa Boracay)

***

It’s gets kind of boring when the person is an incessant perv.

I want awesome conversations.

Most times.

***

I want to lie down on my bed the whole day and think of cats.

Or money.

***

I’m getting excited for the next batch of driving lessons.

I’ll make sure I know more first before I show it to my dad again :)

***

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The Tuesday group has taken a two-week rest period.

Also, I’ve been a little thick-headed on some issue apparently.

Or non-issue.

***

I’m hungry.

Drive

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Two rounds in twenty minutes.

It’s hard when you have something to compare it to from before.

I was able to do 4 rounds in 35.

GODDAMETS.

***

Anyway, errand Wednesday has been a success!

I already have a student’s permit for driving, I was able to get through Day 2 for my driving lessons, and bills are paid.

Doctor appointments were cancelled though.

Bummer.

***

Speaking of driving lessons, the first two days were easy but then when I went home to practice with my dad I had a panic attack and stepped on the gas instead of the brakes.

He already had a semi-heart attack before so this wasn’t a good idea.

STRESS.

***

I’ve been dreaming of playing the drums recently. Maybe when I get enough money for new lessons :)

***

I shouldn’t be too forthcoming with sensitive information with strangers.

But this one seems okay.

I’ll never really know though.

Run

That must have been the suckiest jogging record in a lifetime.

1.1 rounds in 12 minutes?!

THANK YOU CIGARETTES.

Anyway, I started running before to clear my mind. Now, I’m doing this to clear my skin.

The main difference would be that I haven’t started smoking yet the start of March this year so… BEGIN AGAIN.

It’s now been crossing my mind AGAIN that I need to enroll myself somewhere for gym classes. BUT I should remember as well that I have never gone religiously to ANY of those things before so it would be a waste of money.

I should focus on my running first.

And maybe quit smoking.

Or NOT.

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***

Excited for my errands Wednesday!

Hopefully, LTO won’t be a bitch.

Also, I dread dentists.

***

I STILL DON’T HAVE ANY IDEA WHERE I CAN GO TO ON MY BIRTHDAY MONTH VACATION.

*research*

Shiny

I’ve been buying shimmery things these days.

Not actual jewellery. Just shiny, regular stuff that I’d definitely not buy on a normal day (because I’d most probably choose blue or black for the color)

I bought a glittery blue iPad mini case and a distracting silver wallet/purse.

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I had my nails painted soft pink and my toenails painted bright pink.

I even bought a silver Anne Klein watch.

Some b*tch is trying to be girly :/

It will definitely not change the fact that I am brusque and awkward.

***

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I have new trees! :3

Thank you Mammeh!

***

I have so much planned for this month!

Let’s see if they’ll come through.

***

My mind is a scrambled egg that has lost its fluffiness.

I want to sleep for a year.

Fem

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I’ve always wondered about how most girls do what they do.

Perfect hair and nails. Amazing makeup and awesome wardrobe choices.

Tinuturo ba to somewhere?

How about conducting oneself like a lady?

I could use some lessons.

And I need it quick.

I did try fixing my hair and nails this week but I ruined it in 48 hours. It’s either I’m too lazy or too careless or too clumsy and I can never follow through.

How did I even get to be like this in the first place?

Not that I’m unhappy about it, it’s just that I wanted to try something new. I do try every now and then, but the way I am escapes the wide fissures of my unstable ground.

I’m sure I can do this if there’s an actual, URGENT need perhaps :)

Weekends

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Surprisingly, there weren’t a lot of DOM’s hanging around at Valkyrie (compared to Gramercy) and I was already too uhm, inebriated to care anyways. There was this one guy who randomly held my hand for maybe, three seconds but since he was cute (I think or actually malabo na pala paningin ko nun) I let it pass and I smiled at him too instead of stabbing his eyeballs with my heel.

The music was bad and the crowd was young and I sat outside looking at chicks *heehee*

ALSO, I’m so happy I can wear heels now without my feet dying. I need this for work!

Anyway, I’ve come to a realization (which is entirely off-the-topic) that night (or madaling araw actually) that I’VE BEEN MESSAGING THIS CERTAIN GUY WHENEVER I’M DRUNK. Not the suggestive sort but just random inquiries, I think. And I KNOW he’s not interested but he’s gracious enough to reply.

I should delete his number. Hopefully, in case we see each other somewhere he won’t remember me at all.

(Yeah, this is the same guy from… that app.)

I had somewhere to go to both on Saturday and Sunday too so I’m feeling worn out.

VITAMIN C HUHU.

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I’ve always had this malas problem with bus rides in terms of my seatmate.

It’s always a really drunk person or a magnanakaw or a manyak.

So lucky.

I proved that once again on my recent one-day trip to Batangas. The woman that plopped down beside me was really REALLY DRUNK and she kept on saying “I’m so fucking drunk” or “Fuck” and she kept on banging the window beside her (I let her sit beside the window so I can make an easy exit when she vomits). And then she said, “Nasusuka na ako Kuya alis na tayo putang ina” (which means she’s about to vomit plus some expletives).

FORTUNATELY, she never got around to doing so and she was asleep during the trip. She also missed her stop and sort of blamed me on why I didn’t wake her up. I just glared at her as she stood up. Buti na lang malapit lang siya bababa (which is Dasma area I think).

Going home, I had about an hour on the bus without anyone beside me but as I was dozing off someone took the window seat again and he smelled like fish and rusty metal. I mean, that was fine in itself but it was a bit obvious that as I was trying to sleep, he was inching his way near me and his hand was placed somewhere I was all too familiar with. You know that position where you cross your arms and they come out from your armpits? That’s the usual tactic (wow expert?) of manyaks on the bus when they’re trying to get a feel of your side boobs.

He hadn’t gotten around with his plan yet but I immediately stood up and switched seats and sat beside I nice old lady (who turned out to be really engrossed with the Thai bus movie and kept on shouting expletives during action scenes).

Anyway, long bus ride or not, these sorts of situations always pop out and they stress me out.

I have this love-hate relationship with bus rides because they get me places fast but… seriously.

I need a car.

Fluky

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I want something like this.

Something I could tie down to cats and music.

But I want my own design. I haven’t gotten around to touching a pencil just yet.

I’m a bit torn if I should have my existing one retouched first before I move forward.

***

If I get this thing, magpapa-pancit ako (wholesome). If not, most likely it’s the usual tokwat-baboy-brandy-beer thang.

It’s a win-win situation anyway.

It’s either I get it or I learn from it.

***

I want to have a BB King blues band.

Judging from the people I’ve been talking (never meeting) with on Tinder (HAHA), I already have a bassist and a guitarist. Now, for a drummer.

OF COURSE I AM KIDDING ON THAT PART.

But I really want a blues band.

***

Speaking of Tinder, apparently my Tinder crush is already taken (as per our common friend) :(

I would have had two guitarists for the band already.

AGAIN KIDDING.

***

It’s a bit hard to wake up early these days. I’m not even puyat! 

Maybe I’ve gotten used to NOT sleeping early and it’s wreaking havoc on my body clock.

My daily activities have somewhat become stagnant these days because I am distracted or flustered or just plain spaced out.

Will start anew by Sunday afternoon.

I feel like I have so many things to do or that I’m thinking about so many things.

I need a breather.

***

My dad fixed stuff around my house last Wed (he also drank my wine and ate my dark chocolate bar HAHAHUHU but he brought grapes!). My cheap things are dying too soon.

I still haven’t gotten around to writing something on my green notebook of darkness.

It’s a “condo” notebook to be exact.

The thing is, I have stuff to put in the condo already but no condo.

Still looking into locations.

Sayang ang rent.

***

AGAIN I HATE WAITING FOR MANGA/ANIME SHOWS THAT HAVEN’T BEEN FINISHED YET. PLEASE WHY.

And it hurts me more knowing that this certain manhwa I’m reading will NEVER get animated (Noblesse)

Hay why did I get addicted to this shit.

I should reprimand my seven-year old self.

***

Discovered a new artist from Jonas!

SAMANTHA FRENCH

I love her underwater portraits.

It feels like a dream.

I especially like this one: Breakthrough II

82×104″, Oil on canvas

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(And it doesn’t incite in me my fear of [even if it’s just a painting] waves or raging waters)

It’s really a relaxing thing to look at :)

Ah, headache.

I’ve had recent ‘practice’ in staying up late but…

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Here’s a Psychedelic kitty from Google.

***

As if I don’t have enough time to waste, I’m alternating between reading Cara’s book, reading that Noblesse manga and watching White Collar (I’m on season 3!).

I want all the time in the world.

***

I’m having this weird wine phase for July.

Remember that I don’t like red or white wine.

Rosé is…okay.

Anyway, aside from the ‘taste’ factor, it brings about the same aesthetic effects as my favorite cheapo brandy so it’s all good.

Maybe it’s just because I’m drinking cheap wine that’s why the taste is…yuck.

*enter song I Need Some Fine Wine and You Need to Be Nicer*

***

Will trying going to a ‘bar’ again this Friday.

You know, the type where you need to stand for hours on your heels, in a dress and try to dance as if you enjoy it and try talking with strangers too.

God, I hate those places.

But as they say, try something new everyday.

Or try something that scares (or annoys) you everyday. Something like that.

***

Now, for house repairs.

Haven’t smoked in almost a week and I’m feeling cranky.

Or maybe because it’s that time of the month.

Or maybe because ALL but one of my plans for this week has gotten cancelled because I got sick.

I hate unscheduled shit.

*CONTROL FREAK*

***

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It’s been raining the whole week too.

Not that I’m complaining.

***

Sun is out as I type.

Go back behind those clouds you!

***

I need to feel better enough for tomorrow.

It’s a sad-happy event (because someone is leaving! HUHU)

I need to be able to take it as far as the early morn.

***

WHY CAN’T I STOP THINKING ABOUT THAT?

There is this weird need to move on from something you weren’t even into in the first place.

Wut.

***

Semi-productive week.

I have procured a new notebook for my future evil plans.

Now, to get rid of my constant headaches, coughs, and sniffles.

I think the wine helped (I hate red wine!)

***

Edit:

Can I just say HAHA?

It’s raining again.

YES THANK YOU.

Fruits to Bear

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Look three years! :3

Three years of writing into space.

HOHO.

***

Ah, I like fruitful weekends. Or weeks.

I learned a LOT. Like, new insights from people. New ideas!

I have a new book too from Cara and a ceramic syrup container ♥

Awesome music as always.

Not much rest though and I’m feeling the weather.

***

Aside from the squishy shoes, I LOVE THIS WEATHER.

NO glaring sunlight.

NO hot air.

NO dusty streets.

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I need more Vitamin C though.

***

 (Continued this post from two days ago…)

Ah!

If you venture into scary things and you come out of it (semi) unscathed, it feels so much better!

I think I did okay on that one. Okay but never perfect ♥

Now, for the next process.

(I can’t say what it is yet but it’s definitely not about my non-existent love life :p)

***

Three events this coming weekend too! (I can actually count it as five if I were to include le movie dates with friends)

But I’m already sick.

I can never remember to take my vitamins or meds.

Maybe I need memory tablets too.

***

I WANT A GRAMOPHONE. A REALLY OLD, WORKING ONE PLEASE.

(And one with flowers or stars or swirls)

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***

I am VERY CONFUSED this morning.

I watched a random video on my Facebook feed and…

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You can look up Lady Baby or JRock or Nippon Manju.

You can hate me later.

New Listenings

Running on two hours of sleep again!

Last night was amazing!

Damn.

I want to sing and play the guitar like that. So much oomphh!

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(Photos are from valenciahannah.tumblr.com because my phone is crappy)

Didn’t get to go alone to the gig but it’s better with a friend!

I’ll try that solo gigging thang some other time :)

(Speaking of which, if the event was just like that I’d have NO PROBLEMS WHATSOEVER. Might look out for female artists next time for my solo gigging stint)

***

I NEED MONEY FOR TRAVEL GOD PLEASE

I also have a list of what I want to procure short-term.

WORK WORK WORK then.

***

I overslept @_@

Lounging Dog

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Random photo for random posts.

I would very much like to have a pub called The Lounging Cat.

But lounging dogs look cool too :)

***

Had a good two hours of sleep.

It felt like a Friday yesterday due to meeting month-end goals so I got home at one AM and woke up at 3:30 ish. I’ve been a little disoriented with time these days. I actually did my overtime yesterday when I remembered it was scheduled for today.

Anyway, we discovered a REALLY good isaw place in front of El Chupacabra and damn, I can eat that forever.

The Korean “family” KTV near the sports bar was pretty bad and I can’t imagine how the place would sound like when the rooms are full. No soundproofing! (and unisex washrooms boo)

It is a good place to scour alone before evening comes (if you’re just food trippin’).

Just a reminder, if you’re female and there alone 7pm onwards, you’d most probably be picked up by some old geezer.

***

I’ve been on sloppy wear for two days now.

Not in the mood to make much of an effort.

***

EXCITED/SCARED/NERVOUS to do solo gigging later!

I do have a friend Down Under who I can call on Viber so we can share the experience together!

But I will still be physically alone huhu.

Also, I WILL rely on my beer, yosi and phone.

*panic attack*

***

Trying to detox (a bit) today before the event later.

I ate loads yesterday and they were all junk/fatty food.

Maybe the visitor is up.

***

While we were all busy in trying to meet our targets for June, apparently the Makati City Hall had problems of its own yesterday.

So who’s telling the truth?

Gigging Alone Research

Oh, the horrors of being a tall, awkward girl.

It’s quite easy eating out alone or going to a movie house by yourself but watching a gig alone, I HAVE NEVER DONE THAT.

Usually I always cajole someone into coming with me by paying their entrance tickets but I wanted to try something new for this week.

So I’ll be going to a gig alone on Wednesday!

PLEASE DON’T CHICKEN OUT.

I’ve done some research and generally, five rules stood out:

1.) Do not rely on your phone too much

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WHY HUHU

Obviously, it distracts you from meeting new people.

Do I want to meet new people?

:p

2.) PEE FIRST

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NOW, this is the best advice EVER for me since drinking beer brings me to the toilet like 4-6 times a night.

The rationale here is so you won’t lose your spot.

3. Drink (or smoke)

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Which is a no-brainer for me since I do both.

It allows you to kill time and makes you look like you’re actively involved in something.

Whatever that means.

But it does make you look less stupid.

4. Tell someone where you are

In case someone kidnaps me?

5. Socialize and enjoy!

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Now, this is the HARD part.

Oh gods, why wasn’t I born less awkward.

BUT I WILL DO THIS! :)

#makeithappen

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I’ve been here for almost four years now.

Different roommates, different neighbors, two different units.

I’ve experienced six floods and a few heartaches here too but I always felt good turning four different keys in just to get into the room.

My room has seen its fair share of drunk (or high? haha) people and happy music and I couldn’t think of a better place to be in (or to move to).

It’s inexplicable how I feel at the start and end of everyday as I hold my yellow cup of black coffee in my right hand and a stick of Lights on the left, gazing out into the semi-far off business district I have gotten to accept.

Contentment perhaps?

Happiness of different degrees, yes?

It all boils down to how you view things I suppose.

I hope there would be more of those dusk and dawn moments for pondering.

I’ll be a cat in my next lifetime so I can do this all day. I wouldn’t mind this same place for it as well :)

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